she is me :): ~the past~

hey.. right now i wanna talk about feelingsss. :) hmm i beleive that every single one of you have ever feel this heart warm feelings ryte? tak kira lah dengan siapa kita minat,suka, admire, sayang, hmm sure someone tu special kan.

tak salah pon kita nk rasa semua tu kat orang lain. yess as a human being sure nak disayangi n menyayangi kan.
but sometimes aku rasa at this age aku tak sesuai lagi ckap pasal ni. yelah bnyak lagi nk kna tempuh. tapi kdang2. err biarlah. kan. nak jgk rasa puppy love masa teenager ni. aha.. thats life.

ha ini yang the past nya. atas2 tu intro jaa. hha. b4 i've met this guy.. knal pon tak sengaja.. masa dkat2 nak raya last year. then 1 day he invited me pg open house dya..aku dengan dy ni pon boleh in contact sebb ada mutual friend. haha. masa open house tu mcm first tme kan jmpa so mcm waahh hmm this guy not bad la..ada rupaa.
after tht slalu cntct even tht time aku stay hostel,tapi still we cn get closed to each other. hmm aku senng dngan dya.. dy nice, caring. best laa. and aku ada tnya my friend tu about him. dy jnis kalau 1 girl so he will stick to tht girl only. nthlaa laa. rasa mcm betul. but tht time i was focusing on my spm. so mcm tak layan lah dy sngt. aku ada ckp tapi dy ckp dy akn tnggu. how nice! time spm tu mmg everyday dy text me, sent spot question. aku tersangt lah appreciate semua tu. tapi masa tu mmg aku tak nk text dngn sesapa pon. so mcm 10 msg dya 1 ja aku reply. hmm kalau aku jdi dya pon sedihh.. sorry u. then masa last paper, esok tu nk balik dah, dya ada call ckap tak sabar nk tnggu aku. err. tulis kat fb bagai. then kat rumah aku pon tak tau knapa dngn aku tapi aku mmg ignore him. serious confuse tht time. kalau ingt balik, ksiann dy. jht kot aku ni.. 1 night tu aku luah everything. ntah mcm mna ishh. dya pon mcm touching tersangt. yela pedass jgk ayt aku masa tu. then after tu dy give up dah ngn aku terus ignore aku. tak pernah dy buat aku mcm tu..
so bila no msg, no calls from him rasa mcm sunyi..takda his smile, his laugh,jokes,hummm my fault jgk. menyesal sangt. now dengar, cakap or tengok aku pon dy dah tanak.at least kalau aku tak buat mcm tu, we still cn be friend. i know he's a good guy.hope miracles will happen..:) sayang hilang kawan mcm dy..